askinnybitch2be

Dec 26th

2007-12-26T17:38:10Z

Well the Holidays sucked. But I made it through without GAINING so Im ok with that
I CANNOT WAIT TIL 01 01 08. New year, new me.

Update

2007-12-18T00:11:21Z

Well here it is almost Christmas and I have been avoiding LJ completey. I thought maybe I could be strong alone, but NOPE! At least I havent GAINED. Currently 144. Not awful but NOT GOOD! I NEED TO BE 130!!!! I really want to get to 140 by January 1st and 130 by February 1.
I CAN DO THIS

STARTING

2007-09-02T03:57:01Z

147 on Sept 1
GOAL
135 by Oct 1
125 Nov 1 (beach trip!)
120 by the new year. (MY FINAL GOAL) at 5 ft 8

In Hiding

2007-08-25T16:22:22Z

I have been in hiding this past week because I am embarrased by my failure!
I have been running almost every day but I didnt fast. I didnt overeat and I lost 1 lb this week, so I know its not all THAT bad. But still I know I could be doing so much better and more efficiantly with this!
GRRRR
New day new day new day its a new day!

THIS IS IT

2007-08-17T02:16:15Z

OK so I have failed time and time again. The truth? There is just no physical way for me to fast with the life I have and the people looming over me like crazy to eat. No way. So I am stuck. Stuck dreading waking up each morning to step on the scale in fear it has risen ... again. Scared of eating and purging. Scared of never getting under a size 7 in anything. Scared of always having a big chest and being considered a thick, big boned girl.
I will try one more plan. If I do not fulfill this plan I will close this livejournal and give up on this battle.

THE PLAN:
#1- DO NOT LOOK AT THE SCALE AGAIN UNTIL SEPTEMBER 1ST. NO MATTER WHAT!

Follow stage one of the south beach diet- only eating protein, vegies, beans, buts. No fruit, no sugars, no carbs.
Stay here until September 1st. If I have not gotten to 135 but then, continue on this plan. If I have, then add in a few carbed things like yogurt, milk, and fruit.

I have actually looked up online to see if there was any way to remove my tastebuds. Apparently not. I am definately demented!

OK update

2007-08-11T00:55:37Z

OK so its August 10th. I wasnt quite at my goal of 135 by August 1st. Not close to say the least, BUT I am at 143.5
Which is almost 10 lbs I have lost so far.
The bad thing is I have been purging a lot. I know its awful for me. So I am going to do a 2 week fast. My mom is on a missions trip and my dad is clueless and wont notice a thing.
Here are my goals.
August 11- 143.5
August 12-- 143
August 13- 142.5
August 14- 142
August 15- 141
August 16- 140.5
August 17- 140
August 180- 139
August 19- 138
August 20- 137.5
August 21- 137
August 22- 136
August 23- 135.5
August 24- 135
I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!
I need some support, so hopefully I can get some friends to help me through this. I have nevber really added friends to my LJ but here goes nothing!

Tuesday July 3rd

2007-07-03T13:59:02Z

Well Im doing well, not AMAZING, but well. Down to 145 today (and that is on the electric scale)

I feel like I am accomplishing something here, so I feel like it's about to be getting easier to do this now. I am trying to eat as little as possible and have plenty of smoothies with protein powder, peanut butter, or fruit.
SO.... Since June 1st
was 152, down to 145. Lost about 8 lbs in a month. (Good... 2 lb per month average)
I would LOVE to be 135 by August 1st, I know I can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok then

2007-06-24T18:08:17Z

So I havent gotten in a scale in two days because Im scared. I did some serious eatin and drinkin!

I will wait and weigh myself on JULY 1st. I HAVE to be 144 or less.
And I HAVE to be at 135 by Agust 1st.

145

2007-06-22T12:41:47Z

Its a landmark! 145! YAY

I havent been going to the gym much this week, just been barely eating and when I do eat, only healthy stuff.

I cannot wait for th2 day to be in the 130s. I literally looked at an old journal and I was 137 when I was 16, and about 135 last was when I was 14!!!!!!!!!
I CAN DO IT
My boyrfriend noticed a difference today!!

Today!!

2007-06-20T13:08:33Z

146 YAY! This is my lowest weight in a year. If I can hit 140 that will be my lowest weight in about 7 years.
KEEP IT UP ME!

Today

2007-06-12T14:25:23Z

UGH!

10 day hoodia

2007-06-07T03:28:46Z

My mom got me a 10 day hoodia diet.
HERE GOES NOTHING
Starting tomorrow.

PLEASSSSSSSSSSSE WORK!!!

I am so sick of feeling like a hippo!!!!

Day 6 June 2nd

2007-06-02T23:14:36Z

I SCREWED UP BIG TIME